It happened twice this past week that in the morning I woke up, and I thought my life was headed in one direction and that I pretty much had everything figured out, but then something happened during the day that totally changed my next move.
The first was a phone call last Wednesday from a friend telling me about an opening for a job I never knew existed and suddenly really wanted.
The second was yesterday - a conversation that meant I would have to find a new place to live sooner rather than later.
Both of these events changed my plans that I had made for the next weeks and months.
But I am thankful that my heart has been covered in Psalm 139 this week because I know that these changes would be so overwhelming if I was not certain of the One who is in control of them. I can't get my mind off of the words from verse 16. It says:
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
My Heavenly Father is not surprised by any of the events taking place in my life right now. In fact, not only is he not surprised, but he ordained every single one of them.
As of this moment, I have no job, no steady income, no promise of a future with Paul, and no idea what will unfold today. And very soon I will have to pay for rent, groceries, utilities, more gasoline, and an increase in my bills overall - all of which I wasn't quite expecting just yet! If I am honest, it doesn't take very long for my mind to start racing with the details of my situation and try to figure out solutions and how I can make it work. But my Lord Jesus gently whispers to me,
"You are mine. I created you and wove your unformed body together before you entered the world. You will never flee from my presence and I already know all of your days.
Trust me. Walk with me."
So you see, as I dwell on these promises, it becomes less and less important to me to know what is coming next. Because I will trust in the God who in his love, has ordained all of my days.
loooove psalm 139 :) love you too!
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